| I don`t wanna cry ; nothing in the world
could take us back to where we used to be.
Though I`ve given you my heart & soul,
I must find a way of letting go. <|3
You can try your hardest, you can do everything & say everything..
but sometimes people just aren`t worth trying over anymore..
they aren`t worth worrying about...it`s important to know
when to let go of someone who only brings you down.
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| I keep trying to update but once I start writing I dont know what to say.... |
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 ME!!! IM LEGAL! yayy...
2 bad my 18th year started off really bad but maybe it will get better after class tomorrow...hmm hope so!
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| OMFG!
Just when things get a little better for me and Chris something ALWAYS
happens that fucks everything up. I just want to leave Tulsa and start
over...i know it cant happen cuz I gotta start school soon but I can
dream right? People are so dumb and immature...it makes me sO mad that
people act sOo stupid and think nothing is wrong with it. Why cant
people just grow up and realize that fighting and doing drugs is not
gonna get them anywhere in life?! You know...sometimes I hate how I am
because im so uptight and dont like being around alot of people and
dont like going out unless im with someone I really trust...but im
really starting to love how I am lately because I know its gonna be
better for me and my future because im not gonna ruin my life by
getting arrested or being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Yeah it
sucks sometimes because I feel like I dont have a life outside of Chris
but oh well why would I wanna hang around all these stupid people
around here anyways? Tulsa is nothing but drama!!! I want to move to a
small town where I feel safe...and where I can actually loosen up
instead of constantly worrying something bad is going to happen. I
thought drama was going to be over with after highschool but boyy was I
wrong! Why does it always seem like bad shit happens to the people that
dont deserve it? I have never stolen anything but yet my deck and my
money get stolen...Im always the one trying to do shit right but it
always seems to blow up in my face. Why cant I just be happy for once?
Why do I always have to be the one to get hurt? I dont care if I make
another friend in my whole life because it seems like the more people
you know the more problems you have...and I definately dont need any
more problems!! but fuck it...im out! xOxO *Holly*
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| You're just a boy that doesn't know whats
in front of him and I'm just a girl who
doesn't want to let go
i would die for you to be happy
and, sadly enough, sometimes
i think it would work
Gahh im so freakin tired of everything! Everything just seems to be
going wrong! My boyfriend is a complete ass and doesnt care about
anyone but himself...im sO tired of dealing with it but I just cant let
him go. ughh i hate feeling like this! oh and the other day my stereo
and my money got stolen outta my car! I was sO pissed...but I will find
out who did it eventually. Im sO scared to start college...im sO not
ready Im seriously thinking about just not going this semester idk tho
cuz my dad would be pissed...My car is a complete p.o.s. i need breaks
really bad and everything else is just falling apart but I got new
tires today so at least I dont have to worry about my tire blowing out
when i drive on the highway...My birthday is coming up the 22nd. I
should be more excited since im turning 18 and everything but im not at
all...My birthday last year was the worst day of my life and im scared
that this year is going to be the same. I wish I could just totally
forget what day I was born! Ugh right now I just feel like going to
sleep but I know I wont be able to cuz so much shit is going through my
head as u can probably tell since I jumped subjects so many times in
this post...but anyway I guess im just gonna go download some
music....xOxO *Holly*
don't you hate the feeling
when your throat
hurts from all the tears you're
holding back && you can't
control the words coming
out of your mouth cause
there is just too many
things you haven't said
the struggles make you stronger
and the changes make you wise
and happiness has it's own way of
taking it's sweet time
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